God im so confused!!?

ok so allot of what im about to say is probabaly morally wrong and REALLY LONG but idc anymore so bear with me, alright so im in florida right now on a trip with my mom, brother, and his dad. I live in alaska during the school year with just my mom and my brother, and my friend matt and i have been close all of my freshmen year and we hungout ALLOT right at the ending of the year...sooo i was at his house allot, and he has this sophomore cousin who lives in the same household, and she's beautiful beyond describing!, but when i was in ak she had a bf :/, so i left her alone and didnt flirt whatsoever! because its extremely wrong to cheat...my last relationship i had been cheated on. so yea. BUT she was having problems and she was always trying to talk to me and get hugs from me and insisting to sit next to me on matts couch, but i talked to her, and pretty deep **** too, but i refused to hug her and stuff like that, mostly playing but still had my morals. so one day she was drunk with her bestie (who i dated a long time ago) and she would NOT! leave me alone, she would put her feet on my when we were sitting on a couch, then she'd turn and put her back up against me, then when there was no room for her bestie on the couch, she made room, by sitting on me. and its not that i didnt love it but, i had to pretend i didnt because ive told matt that shes hot and the rest of the wolfpack, (chris, brenden, adam, and derek) all agree with me, but he doesnt approve and hates it. so knowing that i moved her off and sat on the floor in front of the couch and she skooches up and puts her vag on the back of my head and wraps her legs around me and thats when matt decided we should leave, so we did. but now i flew down and she broke up with that douche, :/ yea ******* awesome timing, and she hella put out signs on fb and i put some out too. but then she just stopped getting on, and right b4 she did she was saying **** like shes still hanging out with him sometimes....SOO WTF!! WTF DO I DO! WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY!! WHOTH DOES SHE WANT!! IM NOT GOING BACK TO ALASKA UNTIL AUG 1ST WTF DO I DO UNTIL THEN!!!!!